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[acaseofyou]

they say that death is a tragedy it comes once, and it's over

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[nomadicflame]

In my defense. He asked me to do it.

He told me to read his. And then told me to show him mine.

Auspex works both ways, and so I did.

I left out the irrelevant parts. But I think four hundred years of loneliness and solitude was too much for him to handle.

[acaseofyou]

Yeah, I can't blame him for that. I'd probably fall over about it, too.

How was he when you left?

[nomadicflame]

I carried him from the rooftop we meet at down to his apartment and put him in his bed.

I asked him if he wanted me to leave since our hour was up and he yelled at me. He told me I was running away again.

I do not understand him.

[He's doing his best!!]

[acaseofyou]

Yeah, maybe next time you knock him out with memories of how miserable your unlife has been don't offer to leave him alone. Even if it technically makes sense.

Try a hug instead.

If he wants you to go, he'll say so.

[nomadicflame]

I was trying to respect his boundaries!

[acaseofyou]

That's the kind of thing I think it's safe to say you can revisit after he recovers from 400 years of memories jammed in his skull.

[nomadicflame]

I need a relationship advisor.

[acaseofyou]

Don't know how good my advice is going to be.

[nomadicflame]

I did not mean to enlist your help. You have already done so much.

It was merely an observation of my mishandling of this situation so far.

[acaseofyou]

Well, one thing I can advise you on is that relationship stuff is easy to feel like you ruined even if you didn't.

[nomadicflame]

I feel like everything I do is a mistake.

[acaseofyou]

Yeah, that happens. Sometimes it gets easier.

[nomadicflame]

I can only hope so.

[acaseofyou]

I've found it helps a lot if you both want it to be easier.

[nomadicflame]

I do not know what he wants.

Maybe time will tell.

[acaseofyou]

Yeah.

Could be he doesn't know what he wants, either. That's usually a big part of what complicates relationships.

[nomadicflame]

I think that is a large part of it, yes.

[acaseofyou]

Then now, my friend, you gotta be patient.

Frustrating as hell, though. You've got my sympathies.

[nomadicflame]

He asked me to erase the memories I gave him. But leave us as we were intact.

It hurt to do so. Knowing he will no longer understand me. But I cannot ask him to shoulder the burden of four hundred years.

[acaseofyou]

Next time, instead of putting stuff in his head, try just telling him about it instead.

[nomadicflame]

I did. It did not work.

[acaseofyou]

Can you define what it would look like if it works?

Because I'm not sure him collapsing and having a crisis worked much either, if I'm honest.

[nomadicflame]

Trying to explain how I felt without him seeing my memories only made him angry.

But the alternative is, perhaps, worse. While not angry he was not experiencing a pleasant time.

[acaseofyou]

What do you want his reaction to be, though?

Other than not more angry.

[nomadicflame]

Understanding. I do not want him to love me if he is unable to, simply understand me.

I am tired of being crucified for my choices.